Blog 66: "Darkness Is An Illusion"

 "I Died And Came Back With These Secrets," by Mellen Benedict on YouTube
I was watching and listening to a man on YouTube discussing his experiences with death. He was an Atheist and asked God, "Why are humans so dark and doomed?" He died for 90 minutes and was able to tell his audience all about what happened to him while he was dead.

Listening to his story was interesting, and I found myself encapsulated by his words and visions. One reason I continued to watch the video and listen, was due to the parallels that his narrative had with the accounts from Nebulous Children and some of their parents about the ability to see ghosts. This lead me to listen to other individual's stories who died and were revived. Now why would I be interested in this topic? Honestly, I was not interested at all. I was in the search bar viewing something else, and these video started appearing in my feed. I decided to watch one of them, Mr. Benedict's story, and it left me thinking a lot about some children's ability to see ghosts. One of the things that he said was,

"Darkness Is An Illusion"

That phrase was an aha moment for me!

Darkness Is An Illusion
This statement was made based upon his encounters after his death in heaven, or what he believed to be heaven. He shared that he was shown everyone's souls and not one of them was dark or evil. He said it was the first time that he felt love and understood that feeling dark inside was just an illusion. He was also shown hell and learned that he carried over darkness from past lives into this life. In each of his lives, he was not learning but repeating cycles which caused his depression and anger prior to his death. This man's interpretation of this experience was that he has to keep living until he removes toxic cycles from his life. He also felt as if he would go to hell if he did not change. He explained that the agony, screams, and souls seen in hell was terrifying. I believe that he said he could feel the dread, doom, or darkness but was told that he had to go back into his body because,

It is not your time...

However, he did not want to leave "the light," but he had no choice and was sent back into his body. He explained that he saw his soul rise when he died, but he also saw when it entered his body again. As he was revived, he remembered what happened to his soul and what he needed to do to live which caused him to change his life. Upon altering his life, he remembered the darkness that he felt for years was an illusion because,

"No one was born in darkness or evil," based upon what he felt and saw in death. This man considered himself an atheist and did not believe in spirituality or God until he died. "I thought, wow!" Reason being, when I encounter individuals who do not believe in spirituality at all, I always ask and we debate about my questions,

"Well, what if we are right?"
"We have nothing to loose, but you might..."

Those questions leave some speechless. I mean, it does not hurt to believe in something and when you encounter a Nebulous Child or adult, they will tell you about the light of God and His angels. They will also tell you about darkness, dark angels, and demons. It makes for a very interesting conversation and I can understand why some do not believe in any of this stuff; it's easy, if it is not tangible it is wrong and/or does not exist. However, Nebulous individuals will tell you,

You are wrong. Spirituality does exist. I see it.

Based upon what I have learned from the previously mentioned story as well as Nebulous Children, I started watching other stories on YouTube from people who died and came back to life. Interesting! Different health ailments, ages, places, genders, and locations BUT, many correlations in experiences. They match is many, many ways and most of the stories are identical to what children have share with me about various entities that they can see such as God's angels holding their hands, descriptions of dark angels and the agony of darkness, bright light surrounding God's angels, and etc. Just amazing to me and Nebulous Children are so used to it that typically they just tell these stories as if they are reading Disney books to me. It is not big deal to them unless something memorable happens for example, a scary ghost shows itself to them.

Dr. Lisa's POV
Many physicians, nurses, and other medical professions have shared with me some of their experiences with patients who were able to see ghosts, especially right before their deaths. Sometimes in the days leading up to their patient's deaths, medical professionals will report spiritual awareness within their patients. Although many of them are used to this phenomenon, when it happens it is a reminder to them that there is "another side" by way of their patients. Their patients will also call out deceased relatives at times, and a personal friend of mine told me that her patient kept looking out of the window at the light while saying, "Hi Mom." Her mother passed away many years prior to her death, and she was able to see her right before she died.

I'll share an experience that I had with someone who died in 1998. I am a dreamer, and can recall many dreams that I have had over the years. One dream, however, was about the death of someone who loved me very much, and I loved her even more than she knew. I had a lot of questions after her death, which I would say aloud at times such as the following: 

• Where are you?
• Are you in heaven?
• I thought you'd be here when I had a baby?
• Will you see the baby?
• I miss you. How are you doing?

One night, I had a dream that I was walking in this very beautiful garden. I was walking with my loved one who had on the same dress on that she was buried in, and she looked lovely! We were holding hands and I was able to ask her all of my questions. She already knew the questions because she said she heard me ask God about her, and my questions about her to Him. We walked down a path and all I saw was the most beautiful foliage that I had ever seen in my life. There were tulips everywhere and the green color was bold and gorgeous all around us. I asked my loved one, "Where are we? Also, "What is that (down the path there was a light)?" She said,

"It is time for you to wake up."
"God doesn't want you to see that part yet."
"I am ok."
"Please tell my son that I am in heaven."

The next morning, her son had a dream about his grandmother who said that his mother was ok and in heaven with her. Then, a year later I had a dream about our loved one holding a baby girl. Remember, I kept feeling sad because our loved one promised me that she would be in the hospital with me when I had our first baby. However, she died about two years before our daughter was born. I woke up trying to figure out why my loved one was holding a baby and I asked my own mother what she thought about it all. My mother said, "What do you think it meant to you?" "I don't know" I said, clearly in denial only to learn a few weeks later that I was pregnant. That was 22-years-ago when our daughter was born. Later on I said, "Oh, that's what she meant,"

And she saw the baby! :)

Collectively, many issues arose in my mind as I watched the YouTube video for Mr. Benedict. It allowed me to recall stories from Nebulous Children, consider my own personal experiences, and listen to my medical professional friends talk about death, God, and spirituality. Then, ponder the connection between it all to write this blog. How do you explain it to others Dr. Lisa? I have asked myself that question many times because the field of psychology is a science. Scientists are supposed to research, measure, and show data and/or proof that their hypotheses exist, work, or fail and report the findings. Despite the lack of research and our opinions about paranormal activity and spirituality, there is medical evidence of the experiences from individuals who have died. Further, we can all listen to children and adults who can see ghosts and make connections. Some of you also have experiences with seeing ghosts, or know of times when you believed that your deceased loved ones tried to reach out to you. Finally, I have story after story about the experiences of Nebulous Children documented for years. Medical professionals are also witnesses of these events, especially those who work in hospice settings. I observe, read, listen, and consider alternative explanations for these individual's experiences, but I do not have one. 
Do  you?